You are fearfully and wonderfully made.

June, 2019

A while ago I had the opportunity to go to a very well known cafe in London Victoria called Peggy Porschen Cakes, it’s a beautiful place with decadent cakes, a variety of teas and cookies. As soon as me and my friend arrived the queue was curling around the corner of the building and everyone was ready, selfie ready. It was a place to be seen, the building was a beautiful light pink colour with a wonderful Christmas display for the season, dripping in fairy lights, quaint wooden houses, artificial snow and baubles. It was absolutely dreamy and quite rightly, a fantastic photo opportunity. As my friend snapped perfect candid photos in front of the crowd I hid away when it was my turn to grab my moment perfectly posed in front of the entrance, underneath the Peggy Porschen sign. The idea of all of those people looking at me as I attempted to compose myself for some sort of candid photo was my idea of a nightmare. Instead we took photos together where I was then able to be a little more relaxed.

Before I became a Christian I did a bit of modelling, not professionally but for friends, particularly university students who were launching their collections and getting established, so it was never a problem being the centre of attention.

It was easier to become a character for a moment and not think of being myself.

When I look back at the old person I was, I struggled with my appearance and felt extremely insecure. Fast forward to 2019, I no longer feel insecure, however the struggle to look candid in a photo is quite real. Not because I feel ugly, but because it’s just not me.

I wish I could look candid, and in a modelling scenario I probably wouldn’t have a problem achieving a look, because you get so many attempts at taking the perfect shot. Its all smoke and mirrors! I know so many who do it well and look beautiful but it’s just not in me!

So smile, be candid, pout, pull a funny face the bottom line is be yourself. I realised It’s OK not to look perfect. Don’t ever feel pressurised to be someone who you’re not, uniqueness is in your DNA, so embrace it! It was God who formed you and gave you your individuality, He created your little quirks so instead remember you were created for purpose.

Love, peace and blessings.

I praise you because you made me in such a wonderful way. I know how amazing that was! You could see my bones grow as my body took shape, hidden in my mother’s womb. You could see my body grow each passing day. You listed all my parts, and not one of them was missing.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭139:14-16‬ ‭ERV‬‬

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